but i miss her little fuzzy body running to the door when i get home. she's not there when i wake up. i squeezed the pillow next to me this morning by mistake. i guess i need some new habits.
and a stuffed animal.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Thursday, July 14, 2011
today is the last day... of my first week... of my sixth job.
and it certainly has not been an easy week. and tonight will not be an exception. as a matter of fact, tonight is the most trying night of them all. as i will be leaving my job, getting back to new jersey at ten.... to stay up til 3 watching harry potter.
I CANNOT STRESS HOW WORTH IT THIS IS THOUGH. <-- at first, i typed 'tho' but i always feel trashy when i don't finish words with -ugh at the end.
let's paint a picture of my first week.
wakeup:5am. rush around. do shit. sit on train for 1.5 hr. take subway, then wander for an hour. struggle through trying to remember what to do. feel stupid. try again. break. wander. eat peanut butter sandwich (made fun of everyday for bringing one). make more mistakes. rush around. walk to subway. have co workers make excuses to not stand or get on subway car with me. run through penn. crowded train. try not to get attacked at somerville station (irrational fear as someone once told me all the crackhead and homeless people live behind the woods at that parking lot). home at 10:15. check email. try to stay awake long enough to take makeup off and brush teeth (achievement unlocked!). sleep at 11. repeat.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Monday, July 4, 2011
i have three interviews this week.
and it feels like my future is depending on these little minuscule moments. granted, this is my anxiety speaking, but there is so much pressure in general based on interviews. anything out of place, i fear will be scrutinized and analyzed.
and it.makes.me.nervous.
very nervous.
i mean, how can a place tell if i'm right for the job?
i think i'm right for a lot of jobs.
but then again, i haven't gotten one yet... so there's that.
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