blue eyeshadow

is a no no. well, for me at least. some people can pull it off. no. that's a lie. no one looks good with all blue eyeshadow. maybe a splash of blue or some blue eyeliner or a navy crease. but today i made the mistake of believing that today an all blue eye wouldn't make me look like a prostitute miss piggy. yeah, well oink oink. and it was even more of a mermaid cartoon slut than missy prostipig.

i'm rambling. the point is: avoid blue eyeshadow unless i give you the go ahead. but even then, we all make mistakes every once in a while.

God save us all

I waxed my own eyebrows today. Not half bad. which means half bad. half good. half at least they're not so hairy anymore.

exciting news!

i got this box of 40 mini fruit roll ups for....

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50 CENTS!

i know alex will appreciate.

ok so

that wasn't too painful. but to be honest i should've kept the dye on longer. it's not quite brilliant black enough for me. but maybe in the daylight it will be. who knows. i survived. the bathroom is re-cleaned. and i don't have brown and gray roots. all is right with the world.

one small step for my roots, one giant step for ashley-kind.

i'm about to do the unthinkable. instead of paying for my color process. i went to a beauty supply and got peroxide and color and i'm going to mix them together and apply my own color. you know that black and blue dye i get slapped on my head every once in a while. there's a few things wrong with this picture:

1. the house literally just got cleaned today by our cleaning lady

2. i am so alone. i cannot see what i've gotten or what i haven't

3. how do i wash this stuff out??? i guess in the shower?

4. did i mention the dye i black and blue?

i'll be sure to post pictures of this hot mess to come.

somehow

it never feels the way it's supposed to. i got into college (another one) and this is the one i was truly aiming for this time. eugene lang the new school. but reading the acceptance letter and realizing i didn't know who to tell or if that's right for me. i've become to accustomed to this applying and waiting and rejecting and accepting process that i've become numb to it all. i should be excited! i should go out and celebrate. but with who? i just wish there was a way to point me in the right direction and say do this. this is what you'll be happy doing and where you'll be happy doing it. go to the new school. and work hard and make friends and learn things. is that what i'm being pointed towards?