somehow

it never feels the way it's supposed to. i got into college (another one) and this is the one i was truly aiming for this time. eugene lang the new school. but reading the acceptance letter and realizing i didn't know who to tell or if that's right for me. i've become to accustomed to this applying and waiting and rejecting and accepting process that i've become numb to it all. i should be excited! i should go out and celebrate. but with who? i just wish there was a way to point me in the right direction and say do this. this is what you'll be happy doing and where you'll be happy doing it. go to the new school. and work hard and make friends and learn things. is that what i'm being pointed towards?