i now remember what i was going to blog about!

but... unfortunately i cannot properly put it into words (what a awesome writer i must be!). basically, i was sitting, thinking about love and relationships. and i came to the conclusion that a healthy relationship is when two people are the same amount of fond for each other, and there is no problem with it. let me explain this better, in the way that i was thinking.

i told jess not too long ago, that if people didn't have anything keeping them apart, they'd probably never come together. i believe this. par example, par bad example, i should say, when nate and i were dating, in the beginning, he really really liked me, and i was not so sure about him. thus separating us, thus, us coming together. and in the end, i loved him a lot, and he couldn't give a shit about me. i feel like he saw the relationship as the beginning and the end. but i believe the meat of the sandwich was in the middle, when we both liked each other the same. that didn't last. a healthy relationship is when that lasts. does this even make sense?

because the see saw effect of going back and forth isn't what drives a relationship. at least not a healthy relationship.

i am going to re-read this in one week and be really embarrassed that i ever wrote it.