i don't know what's wrong with me! i'm not angry at he#1. i'm not annoyed at my roommate.

i can't be mad at someone who's grandpa just died. plus, before she told me this i realized that whatever i decide to do with my living situation next year, i will not have to see/be friends with/clean up after/tolerate/not yell at he#1. because i will not see her. we aren't friends. so there will be no need for seeing her. so i decided to just let it go. everything she does. i don't have to deal with it forever, so i can't stay mad forever.

next my room mate, she is not a mean person, just inconsiderate. but she said something to me that really made me feel bad. she said she missed home. and then i realized. her home is thailand. not hillsborough,nj. she can't just go there and fight with her mom for a weekend. she has to wait months. they don't even speak the same language in this country. and they have an 11 to 12 hour time difference. so at midnight she called her mom. and i wanted to cry. she was so incredibly sweet and they were singing and laughing with each other. after she talked to her mom. we talked. the way that sisters do and friends do at sleepovers-- in the pitch black trying to fall asleep.

now: to alex niedt. if you miss home, i'm really sorry. and i'm sorry that i hate going home cause i'm sure you'd love to see your mom and winston and your brother and your crazy aunt.